I fell for it. Hook, line and sinker. I got a new car in February and can no longer use my iPod. Hopefully, this is a short-term setback and I will be rockin’ out in no time. My wonderful boyfriend got me an audio book for the car as a temporary solution. I listened to it and liked riding around thinking about something other than umm, everything. Reading, but cheating. So, off to the store I went for another. I bought 2 audio books, Valerie Bertinelli’s “Losing It” and Mackenzie Phillips’ “High on Arrival”.
Always thinking Valerie Bertinelli is so naturally beautiful and cute all at the same time, I chose to listen to her book first. The same day I finished the book, I joined Jenny Craig. Like I said, I fell for it. Scam or not, effective or not, I have no clue yet. I am mid-way through my second week and doing well so far. First week weigh in was a 4.2lb loss.
People around me have been my true inspiration. Seeing my sister persevere for her loss and meet her goal was bittersweet. I was happy for her accomplishment. She sacrificed and worked and had lost over 60lbs. I was happy for her to lose and be happy, healthy, and self confident once again. For me, I quickly realized that I didn’t have the will power or drive to stick to WW. I began to fall off track and let myself withdraw and over-eat.
In November, EFS started a medically supervised diet- which consisted of shakes only. He no longer ate meals with me nightly or over the weekend. He was also the primary cook in the house. Ouch. Holidays were here, and I felt myself withdrawing and eating more sweets than I intended. In January, we started our total kitchen renovation. We removed the walls, sink, and everything else. Welcome to the world of takeout for one. And a big welcome to 20 extra pounds by April 1st. More importantly, congrats to EFS on his 80lb loss… so far. A lot of sacrifice and will power got him to a healthier, happier point in his life. Bittersweet.
Where was I? Valerie Bertinelli. That’s right. So here I am. I am ready to change my life. I want to be happy, healthy, moving, motivated, and thinking clearly. I want to celebrate my losses with those closest to me that understand where I’m coming from and going to. To start, I have set a goal of 50lbs. I need to lose 75lbs but that seems so far away. I wish I could say, “Oh, just here for 25lbs”- SO not realistic. 50lbs is a happy medium and will get me back to where I was 10 years ago.